Hot ... hotter ... and hottest

Who : A tired ... nouveau gym lover.
When : 9pm .. home on my sofa ..
What : Eating leek and salmon bake and feeling a little exhausted and fighting with my blackberry.

Londoners are not cut out for the heat .. and 104 degrees is more than enough to send us running for the AC or planning some ungodly trip to one of England's non-existent and semi-toxic beaches to fry and bake under the midday sun.

PASS!

Today was too much ... two trips to the gym, endless running around and a trip to Wholefoods along with planning an outfit for the T-Pain/Akon private party tomorrow night. (Decided on a Marciano black belted shirt dress, black and gold Christian Louboutin's, Gold and black Chloe bag ... n accessories.)

Just when bidness was back to the usual ... an email from the ex-studio arrives ... mhmm, honestly I'm still analyzing the entire thing because shit I don't trust people as far as I can throw them and there's always a hidden un-business-like motive with these people which you think they would have grown out of in their early 20's. Apparently not. What can I say .... I simply do not have the time or strength of mind to deal with their "going in circles" way of business. Let me sleep on this one ... and I'll get back to you.

Going to cleanse, apply my Creme de la Mer (yep, beauty ho I am) and catch up on Weeds.

x Ms. E ... x

Sometimes it's hard for me to always be ladylike especially as I am always having to be the breadwinner, the head of the household, the homemaker, the go-getter and the businesswoman and other people just step on board and seem to enjoy the ride. Not worrying what is happening in their life because they somehow are delusional enough to feel I will always be there to rescue them or "fix" things.

9 times out of 10 I will always be there to help a close friend (unless the situation is utterly ridiculous) but things have been happening recently that have made me question whether I should in fact help the people who ask for my help ... or whether I should refuse and in fact help them to take some responsibility for a change.

Hell - no one supports my lifestyle but me ... and when I make a mistake, I pay for it. One way or another I HAVE TO FIX THINGS, not rely on some random act to do it for me. (Although there have been a couple of occassions when someone has reached out and helped don't get me wrong). But 9 times out of 10, I'm there taking control of the issue and making sure things get put right ...

I'm tired of being "the rescuer" ... Oprah (yes occassionally I do pay her some mind) once wrote that if you believe you will never be paid back it is not your job or duty to lend. I.E ... look at that person asking you for help or asking you to pay a bill and if you feel they are going to simply brush it under the carpet or dodge you for the next 6 months avoiding paying back ... then simply say NO.

So, as harsh as it sounds I've become pretty frustrated recently. It seems once you help someone once, they think you are now an ongoing stream of help, or money. They think it is acceptable to reach out and ask ask ask and take take take. I'd love to know if the people who I have helped out have ever written a note in their diary or planner or somewhere of each incident so when times change for them they can in fact pay me back ... somehow I strongly doubt it.

So ... I am closing this particular lending book and simply learning to say NO.

x Ms. E ..... NOT ... The Bank of America

Who ... Me, myself and I
When ... 7.55am ... the sun is filling my lounge and the dogs are all still asleep
Wearing ... not too much I just woke up

86 degrees .... and just got gone shopping

Where .... sitting on my bay window-ledge
What ... eating goats cheese, pine-nut, cranberry and spinach salad
When .... 7.15pm

It's so sunny tonight ... spent the day shopping with my partner in crime and picked up two beautiful huge green leaf palms from Ikea .. mhmm I may be high maintenance but you cannot beat $20 a palm. Stocked up on scented candles from my favorite stores as usual ... and spent the morning in Wholefoods clearing the shelves of Voss, fresh fruit and green tea lol .. picture it. Also ran by Trader Joes craving Mojito Salmon and fresh juice morning smoothies.

I gotta thank Ms Kodi Me'Chele for my IPOD touch ... a fabulous gift ... spent most of last night curled up under my fur blanket catching up on missed episodes of the L Word on it and obsessively downloading music. Now if only I can figure out how to work it without looking clueless.

Tomorrow = BedStuy PetStuy ... a dogshow in BK that my favorite girl Kodi is hosting ... at 91 degrees you can find me under a tree lol ... but I can't miss out on the cute pooches of BK.

Sometimes ...

So, usually I'm full of what I'm wearing ... what's going on etc, where I've been going ... hell today I'm a little blank. Yesterday my girl was admitted to hospital ... I was out for most of the day trying to keep my mind off things because if I sat around the house and thought about it all, well I would have gone stir crazy - you know - that feeling when you try to think of other things but your mind just won't let things rest.

So last night, I came home around 6 - had to take the puppies out etc, had to at some point come home and face the fact that she wasn't there. My apartment has NEVER felt so empty ... I basically bullshitted my night away burying myself in work that had to be done, catching up on emails.

When it came to going to sleep (and you all know how much I love my rest) I just lay there with my eyes wide open ... watched movies ... Black Snake Moan, Step Up, ETC ... watched cartoons ... Family Guy, hell even watched a documentary on a high security prison. STILL NO SLEEP. Curled up on the L shape sofa I love so much and looked out of the window - the city looks so peaceful at night, and I love it.

So I've come to realize that you should never take ANYONE for granted - that's probably the worst thing you could do, appreciate every time spent with them and make the things you do and say count.

x Ms. E

TuEsDay ... Business time.

Ignore the pic of me above ... where I'm lookin like a Liza Minelli look-a-like lol.
So it's Tuesday, and all the thoughts in my mind about about BUSINESS. The studio mess is over and done with and we found out just how unprofessional and clueless some people can be. But with that over with .... on with the week.

Wish me luck ...

So ... Happy Memorial Day. The weather is bEauTiful outside. So I'm thankful for the long weekend, purely because it's one of those opportunities to organize both my apartment and my mind. Tonight I fully intend to overhaul my bedroom and walk-in-closet.

Next week I have mixed feelings about -
Firstly today we received a call from the studio demanding a conference call tonight after 7pm ... with NO mention of the very final and to the point email that was sent by me yesterday. They have this convenient habit of just ignoring things they don't wish to hear. So I cross my fingers and hope this doesn't develop into something ridiculous.

Secondly ... I am determined to find the time to catch up with a close friend. No matter what.

And lastly ... there just seems to be going on this coming week, which will mean last minute salon appointments, "I have NOTHING to wear" moments and tired feet from dancing so hard.

So please, enjoy your weekends and wish me luck!

Business etc.

I can only tolerate so much for so long ... and when you're dealing with people who simply don't even think it's an issue to spring "costs" on you last minute and are more than SLoW to come up with an adequate contract then ... you know things weren't right from the RIP. So to avoid unnecessary stresses ... you have to bounce and count your blessings that you didn't have to deal with the un-professionals too long. You can be the most BRilLiant and CrEAtive person but that does NOT mean you have the sense to run a studio.

Did a little home-shopping today ... you know ... candles etc.

Getting ready to escape to the Mercer for a night ... and focusing on a photo shoot.

At home on the sofa

tired at home ...

News ... Updates ... Ya Kno

So ... I deleted my old blog, n this is the new one. So much is going on. The radio show is airing live Mon - Fri (ChECk ThE FlYer). Hell ... go check out the myspace you can watch live from there www.myspace.com/soulmuchrhythmandhiphop


Will be featuring me back in LonDOn!

Summer is finally there ... so you can find me ... by the pool ;)



I've been spending a lot of time in AtLanTIC CiTY ... ya know I'm a degenerate gambler ... you can find me at the craps table ;) ... or at bobby flay's eating the deliCiOus crawfish steak and coconut creme brulee. You HAVE to try it! The Borgata is for sure my spot ...