Broken Jaw.

Where ... at the bestys house.
What ... my broken jaw
Who ... the still fabulous ... Ms. E

It is 2 days until my Birthday and I have ... wait for it ... drum roll ... a broken jaw.
2 mandible breaks in my jaw.
Needless to say being hard headed I checked myself out of the hospital. They will NOT be wiring this divas jaw. Some things can just mend on their own.

Not really too much to say ... I have to rid myself of negativity right now ... there is a black cloud over my house.

x E x

In The Heights.

Where ... in the heights (J.C)
Who ... me n kodi me'chele
What ... sipping champagne and ignoring chores.

Currently wearing ... Juicy Couture and some Nike Shox and a coat that makes me look like I should be slingin' on the corner lol. Anyhow ... things are ok. I had to vent yesterday and you all know this is my little soapbox to vent off seeing as I don't like putting my business around too hard in my personal life - there are just some things you've got to put down on paper/screen so you can read back and see your progress forward.

Things are going OK. I'm stressed but not trying to let anyone see that - hell, I am TORN over the fact my father is in the hospital and it means I'm having hair trigger reactions to people acting the fool or coming at me the wrong way. But life is good. Despite obstacles and issues being thrown in my way and so many by the minute changes. I'd love a regular schedule, but would hate to do half the things that require one lol. Pass ... I like things just how they are.

(Listening to a Mary J Blige n Jay Z mix ... eating chicken ... sipping)

Guess I'm re-evaluating what I want from life - I'm about to be 24. But I feel like I've experienced more than some 50 year olds.

Love you all . ;)

Expensive by name ... Priceless by nature.

WTF.WTF.WTF.

PLEASE DON'T EVER COME TO ME COMPLAINING ABOUT THE ALMIGHTY DOLLAR WHEN YOU'VE JUST FINISHED TELLING ME ABOUT WHAT YOU'VE SPENT ON ANOTHER BITCH ... OK SO YOU GOT TRICKED ... CONGRATS. MOVE ON. SHUT UP AND MAKE YOUR MONEY, AFTER ALMOST 4 YEARS IN THIS COUNTRY, YOU DON'T HEAR ME COMPLAIN ABOUT THE STATE OF THE DOLLAR ... OR THE STATE OF MY DOLLAR. GET WITH A BUDGET. I'M READY TO KNOCK SOMEONE OUT. SERIOUSLY. I'M A 100% GENUINE CASHMERE BITCH. DON'T LET CLASS FOOL YOU, I SHAKE IT OFF REAL QUICK.

PEACE.

Urgh.

Who ... the household diva ... in her cashmere sweatpants and white wifebeater.
Where ... in my living room.
What ... my back hurts and my chihuahua has turned into Cujo.

OK ... so, where do I even start. My neighbors upstairs now have two bright white shitzus. Loud n Yappy and making my teacup chihuahua Chico run RIOT at the thought that there's pussy upstairs and HE cannot get to it. He has turned into a mini-Cujo. Snarling, growling, and terrorizing everything and everyone.

I'm in the middle of a late-night apartment OVERHAUL. Yes, it is ALL being done over n up.

Just ordered a late night meal ... cheese+steak+onion calzone ... with a soda (shhh don't tell anyone!) and a piece of chocolate cake. Watching Sex and the City. Waiting to go and get my laundry out of the washer and into the dryer. Arrrgggh.

Have decided I don't like the shape of Basement Boy's head. It's all wrong. Perhaps that is why me and him clash on so many things. It's all about his HEAD SHAPE.

So anyhow ... my back ... HURTS. I've been spoiled with nightly massages. But tonight, I'm going to have to make do with mandarin bath salts, candles and some wine. It's just not going to compare. But nevermind.

Oh so excited about my B.F.F.'s current tv project ... HEART ... she's filming tomorrow night, so I am secretly excited for her. And keeping my fingers crossed that everything goes well.

[currently eating what America calls a Calzone ... it's STRANGE .. but least I tried it]

Sleepy now.
Goodnight

"I thought I told you that we won't stop. I thought I told you that we won't stop"

My Addiction

It's a damn problem ... soda is ADDICTIVE. I am currently going cold turkey and back onto purely water. HELP. lol.

My B.F.F

Where ... my home ... listening to Tweet and others.
What ... My best friend ... ;)
Who ... Me n Kodi

Sometimes, you forget to express your gratitude and love for someone in person because you are both all wrapped up in "now" ... what is happening that moment. But certain days and events make me reflect on who I have in my life. Kodi has been one of the most positive people to have ever stepped into my life and I love her. When she is moody, happy, down, up ... I love her. That is my partner in crime, my sidekick, my girl ... everything. The positivity she brings is amazing, even when things are tough, and the times we share together are ALWAYS the best. From lunches, to nights home watching Golden Girls and What's Happening ... to crazy nights out at NY clubs and bars and falling asleep on the subway and ending up in some random boro lol. Hell even when we are dealing with drama we staying laughing and unfazed. (Mars 2112 was the perfect example lol see the pic above ... that was a weird night at the weirdest club ever.)

We scream at each other, then go right back to being the best of friends and THAT'S what it is about.

So ... thanks babe for keeping me going ... :) I am here to stay. lol

x Ms. E ... the one and only ... ask about me x

Make Your Paper.

Where ... home. Waiting on chinese take out.
What ... "good things come to those who wait"
Who ... just me.

Today was one of those days, where things get done but not in their usual way. I woke up in a BEAUTIFUL home outside of White Plains ... mmhmm Bill Clinton and David Letterman were my morning neighbors. lol. Rolled out of bed and rushed to get home. You don't realize how much you really miss your home until you have to be away from it when you don't want to be. My home is so peaceful, it's my sanctuary. The lights are always low ... it's comfortable.

Currently waiting on some chinese to arrive ... time of the month lol ... time for general tso's chicken with vegetable fried rice and wonton soup ... mmhmm and I might just sneak soda too.

Currently ... Kodi is telling me about eating weed because there was nothing to roll up with. Special.

Currently ... Watching Kat Williams ... and dying laughing.

So let me tell you bout an issue that's been going on for a while. A certain ex of mine for some reason will not leave me alone. Drama with a capital D. See this man lived a good life with me ... nice cars (beamer, jeep, etc), nice apartments, shorthills mall regularly, and he remained well fed (we damn near ALWAYS ate out) and he was continually iced out. The "man" did not have to work. So anyhow ... he still clings on to the fact that it is done and over with and that he is now sleeping on his momma's floor (yeh real baller status now). So a recent argument over something entirely unrelated to ME, then, in his mind, turned into an issue of me ... the female in the situation ... yes, figure that one out. You see foolish boy wants to be a baller overnight ... and still fails to recognize that it requires hard work and hustle to continually maintain, fast money DOES NOT LAST unless you invest it into something with longevity.
How long will it take certain individuals to look around ... and see the people they left were in fact doing the RIGHT things. He really under-estimated this European. Mhmm fall back.

So .... my message for today "Make Your Paper Boo Boo" ... because no one else can be your income.

Hell, WHAT WAS I THINKING?! I am now blessed with the benefit of hindsight and a good man in my life.

So business is on the up.
I'm feeling truly loved.
And I am ... most of all ... Happy.

x E

Where U At?

Where ... @ an undisclosed location
Who ... Ms. Bout it Bout it lol
What ... tonight, today, and wtf?!

P.S. Loving Robin Thicke's song.
So, tonight I'm heading over to Legal Seafood in White Plains for dinner. (no idea what I'm wearing, it's purely business ... so .. something simple. ) For some reason, I like that restaurant, ever since an ex presented me with a gift of some Gucci shoes when we were eating at the one attached to Shorthills Mall. He was an asshole but knew how to be romantic. Their Calamari appetizers are really good.

Tonight is the start of something brand new, an expansion in my life and business and that's ALWAYS exciting for me. I'm finally getting to leave behind some aspects of my business that I disliked.

But enough of business, it's almost the weekend ...

Bout to take a LONG bath and enjoy my evening.

x E

Where ... got home at 5am from E.O
What ... damn near everything that's on my mind
Who ... Ms. I Broke A Nail Last Night

Spent the night in East Orange ... well most of it, (wearing black leggings, a deep grey tight 3/4 length navajo sweater and deep red super-tall Louboutin's) Broke a nail before I went out so had to wear a band aid :(

Ate the BEST curry goat with rice and plantains I've EVER had. Damn, honestly, when you're running around so much and eating out or eating take-out so much you forget how good a home cooked meal is. Especially when someone can really cook their ass off. DAMN I am so stuck on his cooking right now.

On a side note it was great to see A last night ... even that short ride was a lot of fun ;)

Thank god that Obama got the votes - now I have some sort of HOPE that this country will improve. I heart Obama. If McCain had been voted in I would have had to get a plane ticket home lol.

Currently watching SpongebobSquarepants because he's such an optimist.

Missing my white Hanro of Switzerland pyjamas ... they were so comfy, so sexy ... damn.

It's weird how coming home in a cab at 4 something in the AM can clear your mind. Things are so peaceful.

Anyhow ;) ... hanging out so let me cut things off there.

x E

Impress-ions.

If you want to impress me - keep it simple - have your OWN life.
Don't waste my time or nickel and dime me.
Because I smile means I'm nice NOT stupid.
If you talk to me or see me ... it does not mean you KNOW me.

Everyone has an idea on how they can make money off me - whether big or small.
If you have the brainpower to try to access my money and market me to your advantage - why not use your ideas and make your OWN.

I am BUSY ... keep me out of your bullshit.

Want to impress me? ... give me a bag full of cash NO STRINGS ATTACHED - Euros ONLY, the dollar isn't worth shit right now ;)

No I'm not a gold-digger - I just know my worth.

Dick Politickin'

Dick PoliTiCKin.

I ♥ men ... mmhmm I do. HOWEVER ... all talk and no action sends me into bitch mode. (contrary to popular belief I don't often go there)

I comprehend that many men are still stuck on the notion that women are supposed to be there for them like Comcast on Demand ... but click'n'trick is not every woman's style. Shit I have to run a business and my personal time is PRECIOUS ... I am not on call for your every potential "I might wanna see you" moment.

My business comes first. That's my income.
If I'm feeling someone enough of course I'm going to make a little time and room, but please, I am not pressed ... dick is a dime a dozen ... if a dick is disrupting things ... then I have to politely PASS for the sake of zen balance in my world.

Maybe I don't make myself clear enough - "Money over Bitches" is a phrase that works BOTH ways honey ... and Benjamin Franklin is my daddy ... shit "he" comes FIRST.

Don't get things confused ... I am a freak who loves to spend some "quality" time with the right person, but act fast and learn fast because I do NOT wait around.

x Expensive x

Time Changed.

Where ... home sweet home ... wearing my pink boxer-style bathrobe
What ... recent events
Who ... at peace Ms. E

It's Sunday ... and it's been a peaceful day. Started off with unhealthy chicken-spot food ... mmhmm let me be lol. Last night spent time with Kodi and Blau ... smoked some (yep it's been a while), ate Papa John's garden fresh pizza (love heart love) and rhymed haha yeh imagine it, me in rap mode. You can stop laughing now. No ... really ... stop.

R.I.P to my uncle - who passed this week.

Business is GOOD and my new venture gained 3 new fabulous new clients in just one day. The website is up! The clients are rolling in ... and everything is moving forward.

Craving some home-cooked-food. The roti I had the other night was the best. Seriously ... took me back to being in East London. It also put me to bed. lol. Now I am craving colslaw and oxtails mmmhmmm.

Well ...

Time for my back-rub ... g'night.

x

Last Night ...

It's Halloween ... ;) trick or treat?
So last night me, Kodi and Babyboy met up in the village for drinks. 3 martinis later I set the bar on fire ... :) Totally by accident of course. Another classic moment. There's not too much more I can say about that. But Kodi is STILL laughing about it.

Currently listening to "The Best of Lauren Hill" ... this mix is HOT

So ... spent the rest of my night in E.O ... woke up at 4am and crawled into a cab home. Had the BEST roti cooked for me that I've had in a long time last night. That man can COOK.

(Wore Christian Louboutin heels, black leggings, oversized grey batwing sweater, Chloe black belted coat, Chloe purse)

At home with Kodi tonight being diva-ish ... n working on a business concept.

Spent most of the day with Kodi, and half the morning "discussing" with A.I. my current dilemma. I've never heard anyone lay it down n make so much sense ... seriously. He is one of the realest men I know and what's more he has A PLAN. Yes ... he thinks further than the end of his block and his next meal. You have to have nothing but respect for a man with a plan. He layed it down about how love is REALLY supposed to be. Whoever he settles down with is going to be a lucky and loved woman.

Anyhow ... enough for tonight, I'm about to watch re-runs of Girlfriends n drink my water.

x E

F-A-B-U-L-O-U-S - Jaheim

"Young cat, got back, did a little BID
now he hard, he buff, he tough -- doo rag and timbs
Kinda hard to get a job back out on the block
Charge that to the game
Young girl, she grew up in a rush
Had it bad, no dad, she don't know who to trust
Every man she ever loved only WANNA CRUSH.
Charge that to the game
But it's all gravy, hey baby
Shots get popped, the cops shut down the party
Jeans sag low, blow smoke out of Dutches
We got love for ya'll, but y'all don't love us.
So we SWERVIN' in the Suburban, switchin' lanes
Spend up all our dough on them chromey THANGS
Name our kids some funny names
Don't hate on us, we're fabulous.
Prepaid CELLIES for local calls
little dons and divas up at the mall
rockin' cornrow twists, that's how we BALL
don't hate on us, were fabulous
They met, he said how she was a dime
So naive that she believed every single line
17, first time slipped up, bout to have a child
Charge that to the game
Was just us and mom, single family home
She did the best she could, did it all alone
Met a man but he won't raise a child thats not his own
Oh, no, oh, no, no
But it's all gravy, hey baby
Shots get popped, the cops shut down the party
Jeans sag low, blow smoke out of Dutches
We got love for ya'll, but y'all don't love us.
So we SWERVIN' in the Suburban, switchin' lanes
Spend up all our dough on them chromey THANGS
Name our kids some funny names
Don't hate on us, we're fabulous
Prepaid CELLIES for local calls
little dons and divas up at the mall
rockin cornrow twists, thats how we BALL
But don't hate on us, were fabulous
We're all that we've got
and no matter whatever together we'll weather the storm
IT AIN'T A LOT, we all we got, it might get rough, but
it's alright
Cause U-N-I-T-Y is all we need
To get our R-E-S-P-E-C-T
And never G-I-V-E U-P
And keep your H-E-A-D U-P
And never G-I-V-E U-P
And keep your H-E-A-D U-P
And never G-I-V-E U-P
And keep your H-E-A-D U-P
And never G-I-V-E U-P
And keep your H-E-A-D U-P
And never G-I-V-E U-P
And keep your H-E-A-D U-P
And never G-I-V-E U-P
And keep your H-E-A-D U-P"

So appropriate for the way things are right now

ER + NYC

"It's colder than 10 bitches outside"

It's getting COLD. There are so many things I want to discuss.
For some reason I love feeling the cold night air ... in fact night-time in general gives me some sort of peace.
Recently the simple things in life have come to mean the most. Coming home to a back rub with peppermint oil after a long day, walking the dogs down to the waterfront and seeing the ny skyline, laying naked keeping each other warm with the cold night air coming through the open windows, having breakfast cooked for me, true friends, lunches at Slane with my bff, a bottle of wine and listening to biggie ;), girl-talks, laughing (the best medicine).

Today I learned how important our health really is. Riding the the back of an ambulance looking at NYC out the square back windows almost put me in shock. Seeing someone you love go through hurt and stress to the point where it effects their health is the worst. NEVER LET ANYONE OR ANYTHING STRESS YOU OUT. Sometimes you just have to say "fuck it". You cannot solve everything and you cannot keep everyone happy ... nor is it your job to. Puh-Lease.

Tonight I'm playing nurse ... because I'll be damned if my hard-headed girlfriend is gonna spend the night on her own after all THAT today. Um, yes, don't think I won't force feed her if I have to. There is NOT going to be a repeat of today on my watch lol. Wow. There was almost a K.O punch issued today because some fool pushed the wrong buttons ... shiiiiit ... I was not in the military, therefore SIR, don't even take some kinda offkey tone with me. You DID get put in your place ... no need for drama in a dramaful place.

So, goodnight, because it really is a good night ... my loved ones are happy and healthy and my team is oh so strong.

x E

NYC Winters.

What ... City Winters.
Who ... The Ice Queen ;)
Where ... in my 80 degree apt with the windows open.

It's un-officially winter ... so I've got the heat up n the windows open ... because I want to be warm but still LOVE that icy winter wind. There's something so sexy about the winters in the city. The cold air, the city lit up at night, Christmas, my bday, wrapping up for a night out, Starbucks in the AM. Maybe it's because my first full season in NYC was the Winter that I love it so much.

So I'm OpTiMistic about this Winter.

Can't wait to enjoy the city ... so catch up with me there ...

x E

Missing You ...

To My Father ... I Love You - and you know I will, always, hold things down.
The pain I'm feeling right now is indescribable but you're the strongest man I know and the ONLY man I trust.
To be blunt - no man on this earth has SHIT on you ... you are one of the biggest inspirations in my life alongside my mother ... no one could have ever taught me business like you have, no one has ever shown me love like you have, no one could have ever taught me culture like you have and no one could have EVER taught me how to handle any situation like you have, no one has ever had my back like you have, no one I've met has ever been as cultured as you and had as many street smarts, no one has ever encouraged and believed in me like you have ... you ALWAYS taught me how to make the best out of any situation and to follow my dreams, you've never once judged me. I could not have asked for a better Father ... you're all I could have wanted and MORE.

I love you Dad ... and I'm right here beside you to ride it out.

x

The World's Most Refined-Hood Daughter.

European Style

It's Sugar NYC

"The main thing about money, is that it makes you do things you don't want to do"

Stutter.

"Talk to me, tell me, where you were (late last night),
You told me, with yer friends, hanging out (late last night),
You lying, cuz you stuttering, now where were you (late last night),
Stop lying to me, cuz you're ticking me off, see you're ticking me off, oh girl." ... Joe ... Stutter.

P.S. ... I LOVE THAT SONG.

So, it's Sunday morning and I'm here .. Hello Kitty boyshorts and a wifebeater on looking out the window at the MADNESS that went on last night. Last night I saw the tree at the back of the building literally take-out an entire family of garden furniture ... mmhmm Karma showed up in my neighbors backyard and literally crushed furniture, fences, bust windows and everything else. ... That's what happens when you cause individuals unnecessary stress. SoMeThING gets you back.

Despite storms and tropical rain and trees narrowly missing me ... it was Kodi's bday ... 30 ... so we celebrated diva-style with flyboy Blau (a close friend of Kodi's). (Rich and Skinny jeans, black sweater, TopShop fur vest) Sake is not on the menu for me ... especially by the glass-full ... but I sipped on my Henny lol. It always feels good to be around uncomplicated no-drama people.

So today I'm settling into my Sunday .... Juicy bits to come later.

x E

Congratulations

Congratulations to my boy Charles on winning his recent fight - got MAD love for you even though we barely see each other.

Out n About

Where ... up n in my living room
What ... last night
Who ... a tired but happy exxxxpensive

OK ... so where to start. So last night we ended up heading out early ... black and gold patent Christian Louboutins, sheer and knit sleeveless Rock and Republic top, skinny jeans (J brand), Chloe Paddington bag ... so Kodi was looking fly as usual, that girl dresses her ass off. We ended up hitting up the Black Pussycat in the village for snacks + martinis (umm how many ne-yo look-a-likes were in that place?! I lost count) then slightly tipsy ran over to the Karaoke spot ... that place is like watching the first auditions for American Idol, you have your "good" and "incredibly bad". Love it. So after finishing some drinks there we were DrUnK. (Oh n Kodi's "Rapper's Delight" was the BEST)

Cabbed it over to Katra. (Bowery btwn Rivington and Prince) Honestly ... it's a sexy location, n we headed upstairs to VIP and sipped on pomegranate martinis ... mmm so good. Kodi introduced me to the Birthday Girl and her beau ... awww she looked so pretty. So we hung out for a little while then ... wait for it ... hit Macdonalds. Why are chicken nuggets and bbq sauce SO good when you're drunk? Being that me and Kodi are officially "veterans" of NY and London nightlife we get tired like old folks ... so trying to have the usual half drunken conversations bout "men n their drama" over our chicken nuggets we started falling asleep. LOL. Yes ... somehow we got on the train (do NOT remember that) and ended up in Brooklyn. Not only did we end up in Brooklyn but we ended up next to some germ-phobic female who was wearing a full face mask and I was surprised she wasn't spritzing herself with antiseptic.

Finally got back to my place ... threw Golden Girls on the tv ... I think lol ... and we crashed out asleep under my duvet on the sofa. I woke up in my bra n hello kitty pyjama pants and vaguely remember drinking two bottles of Voss in the middle of the night. No hangover ;).

Water tastes damn good this morning.

(Gotta love the pic above where I look like some kinda ghost lol)

x E

@ Katra

Where ... @ Katra
What ... Someone from Universal's Bday ...
Who ... me n Kodi Me'Chele

Ok, y'all know Kodi is NOTORIOUS for springing last minute events on me. Mmmhm. So tonight I have to attend a last minute meeting at 9pm for my new project and then hoof it ... no let me re-phrase that ... cab it over to Katra and celebrate the bday of one of Kodi's people from Universal. So ... it's 4.30 and I'm already in a dilemma. What to wear? ... first thoughts are skinny jeans, Rock and Republic sheer and knit sleeveless black top, black and gold Christian Louboutins, Chloe paddington bag and a carefully placed rock on my finger. Lord. My outfit is no doubt gonna change several times. Not to mention doing my make up in this current humidity (YES humidity in October!!) is going to cause more trauma.

Least my nails are freshly french tipped and ridiculously long and my toes are pedicured to the hilt.

Had two rum and sprites at lunch today ... and I am in desperate need of a bottle of champagne which I just KNOW awaits me at this meeting. Thank god for small miracles.

So let me go and sink into a hot bath and relllllax before all hell breaks loose.

(Needless to say I am dragging Kodi with me all over NYC for "in heels" support)

x Expensive

Manners.

Don't you hate when people don't say thank you when you give them something and people who don't apologize when they cause you an inconvenience or problems?

I Love Pits

Columbus Day

Where ... looking out the window ... home.
What ... the past two days.
Who ... a tense fashionista ... wearing white wifebeater, tiny blue American Apparel shorts, hair wrapped in an Emilio Pucci scarf.

Yesterday was a day of PURE relaxation for the most part ... aside from a couple of issues that were taken care of ... I spent my day lazing in the bathtub, having long massages, ... diva-ing around the house wearing my hair is rollers and an Ole Henriksen face mask and watching The Golden Girls on dvd.

Caught up with work/emails.

Today ... well Happy Columbus Day first of all ... congrats to Chris lol. Seeing as it was a "holiday", I sat around, cleaned the house, answered emails I've ignored for far too long and ate pizza from Stella's (I love their pizza) I also received a new arrival today in the form of "Visa" Mmmhmm remember the slogan ... "Visa. All you need". Well first off she is a fighter (pitbull, gatorhead, blue blood line), so you know I don't roll with that Michael Vick bullshit so that HAS to stop. And introducing her properly to Foxy has been difficult to say the least ... but she is such a sweetheart and an amazing protector.

Tomorrow = Work and picking up my new car. pretty+white+bmw.

Honestly ... the tension is mainly to do with getting everything done correctly. Plus I have to arrange a few things ... a certain person's bday etc ... various things to do with work. Thankfully my business survives a LOT better than most in an economic crisis. Some things people just cannot go without.

Going to get some much needed ZzZzZzZ.

x Expensive

"They say that everything you go through in life
That's what you become
If thats the case yeah
I'm becoming number 1"

I love my bitch.

"my lady never lets me down
thats why I never let her go
she always here to lift me up
when I fall down and hit the floor
my baby so amazing
let me sit back and count the ways
1...... she the shit
2...... she the shit
3..... she the shit " Busta Rhymes ... I Love My Bitch

I love my bitch ;) even though sometimes she acts the fool. That's what love is ... no matter what goes down you'll always be together ... friends, lovers ... all that.

"you see my bitch she a one of a kind
I know you wish your bitch was a rider like mine
when you see my bitch you know my shortys a dime" - I Love My Bitch

The Secret.

So everyone is talking about it ... even Oprah ... so I'm so so curious to get my copy of The Secret. Thanks to my B.F.F for my copy! Girl ... ;)

Mmmmm

mmmm curry goat, plantains and colslaw. Give me.

Brunch.

Balthazar is the perfect place for brunch or dinner ... I LOVE it and it's been one of my favorite relaxed spots for a long time. I heart they salmon. And Chanel and Reiss are just down the street ... get your weight up in Balthazar then hoof it fashionista style for some SoHo shopping.

In Your T-Shirt

"When You're Not Here (I Sleep In Your T-Shirt) I Wish You Were Here (To Take Off Your T-Shirt) After We Make Love (I Sleep In Your T-Shirt) Wake Up In Your T-Shirt, Still Smell The Scent Of Your Cologne When I Need Your Feel (I Sleep In Your T-Shirt) I Need Help (To Take Off Your T-Shirt) After We Make Love (I Sleep In Your T-Shirt) Wake Up In Your T-Shirt, Still Smell The Scent Of Your Cologne" - Destinys Child - T Shirt.

I'm sitting here with you white T on. It's huge on me but it smells of you ... and it makes me feel safe, the same way I do when I lay on your chest and you wrap your arms around me. When I say your name out loud ... I feel warm n smile ... the same way you do when I call you "baby".

The other night, when I lay down in front of you in my grey boyshorts and white wifebeater and you rubbed massage oil into me ... my thighs, my calves, my feet ... it was so perfect. You told me I was a "Bad Bitch" and gave me that look you give me when everything is going right. Something felt right about that time we spent ... my legs all stretched out glistening from the oil in the soft light of the living room ... your perfect chocolate skin ... your muscles looking all perfect n your sexy almond eyes looking down onto me. The way your wifebeater was stretched over your chest. The way you handled business on your phone. Shit .. it's stuck in my head.

... I miss you right now. But I'm in your t-shirt so it's all OK.

Cover.

You've got to c this movie.

I Learn.

Where ... what's it to you?
Who ... a peaceful but watchful Ms. E
What ... the things I've learned.

"Roll the Dice"

I've learned so much in the past 4 years of my life. But it's only been very recently that everything has started coming together. Love, Business, Family,and TRUE Friends.

I've learned that surrounding yourself with a lot of people only brings problems in the long term. People seem to get jealous over the smallest things ... hell, what's with that? I really don't know. But what I can honestly say is I'm genuinely happy to see people I both know and don't know doing well for themselves. Life can be hard, but it's those little moments with family and friends that keep you going towards your bigger goals. Change is good but you cannot forget where you come from and who was really there for you. "Through richer through poorer, in sickness and in health" ... sure that's just a wedding vow to most, but to me it's how I choose my company ... I only want those people surrounding me that are true to me, hell you better be good enough and true enough to be my husband or wife to remain in my circle and I for sure believe in DIVORCE if you fall out of line.

There are only a handful of people I am truly close to in this world ... who I KNOW I can trust My mum, my dad, Kodi, B, S., A, Tek, my banker, my lawyer. Maybe some of you are thinking wow that's a damn shame ... not really ... I can now go to sleep peacefully at night knowing everyone close to me is true to their word and their purpose. The rest is just business ... and trust me the actions of those others have made that perfectly clear too. Everyone else in my life is "about a dollar".

"About a dollar" isn't necessarily a bad thing ... hell I'm all about making money. But there are times you step out of that mode to help someone close. Not because down the line you want to "cash in a chip" or favor with someone, but because you love them like they're family. "About a dollar" people will not care if you are struggling. They get dollar signs in their eyes no matter what ... and if they don't then you KNOW the will expect you to chalk up a favor to them. Then you've got those people who will not expect money, but purely do things to get on your good side because they want some pussy ... PLEASE ... who needs sneaky motherfuckers like that? These types of people thrive on seeing you struggle which is why they like to be in your business ... they smile if you fall and pride themselves on fucking you over from close range. LOOK OUT for those people who do not take care of their own business (laze around, wait on a miracle types) but who go out of their way to be up under you and close to you. They are only remaining close to bring you down with them.

Love .... is something that means more to me than money. When you find that "one" I believe you can finally be peaceful. Sometimes, like most, I lose faith in the whole concept. But I believe good things are happening and I'm always willing to ride it out and see what develops.

Family ... my family mean the world to me and I've learned that they are irreplacable. I love my family, work with my family and would under any circumstances so anything on this earth for them. Because irrespective of what happens ... my family are RIGHT THERE ... not in front of me, not behind me ... BUT RIGHT NEXT TO ME. We love, fight, help and make money together.

Business ... is business. Nothing personal, but that's all it is and it took me until very recently to fully comprehend the meaning of "never mix business with personal" ... 9 times out of 10 I've followed it throughout my adult life ... but on occassion I've foolishly let things spill over and it's ended in chaos.
It's a solid rule that I will never mix personal and business again in my life.

I've also learned never to let too many people into your "home". Home is where the heart is ... it should be the place where you can TRULY rest ... and anyone who violates you in your home (whether bringing negativity or pushing their unwanted feelings onto you) does not need to be a part of your home life. If someone violates your trust or comfort level within your own home it truly shows they have ZERO respect for you. Who the hell needs that?

I'm POSITIVE there's more to learn.
There ALWAYS is.

Love You All

x Expensive x

Under A Blanket

Where ... home under my duvet
What ... on my mind
Who ... a peaceful diva

So today I spent the day handling business is the AM ... mmhmm I woke up to business. The slipped into a Joseph deep navy sweater, white wifebeater underneath and J Brand indigo skinny jeans with some deep grey havania flip flops and pulled my hair back into a messy bun ... threw my phones into my oversized green worn leather Diesel bag propped some oversized black jewelled Bulgari sunglasses and went into NYC with my B.F.F. Kodi Me'Chele.

So ... skipping a meeting I REALLY shouldn't have ... last minute decision. We headed to Slane in the Village n ate the usual Vegetarian Quiche and salad ... n sipped on some gin and tonics. (Mhmm we drink like old folks) and then craving something a lil stronger we headed to the Black Pussycat for Pear Martinis.

(Oooh n did a lil shopping between drinks ... picked up super-soft-n-sexy oversized deep grey sweater)

So tonight I'm sitting here, peaceful, ... a special someone is rubbing peppermint massage oil into my legs and feet while I get a few last minute things done online. I'm just fine.

x E

Feelings.

Where ... home
What ... feelings
Who ... a tired and relieved Ms. E

Sometimes it takes something spiritually higher to let you know there is something "not right". Recently myself and Ms. Kodi Me'Chele (the one n only) stepped into our favorite spot in NYC for picking up all things Buddha. (Land of Buddha, McDougal Street, NY).

It was recommended I get this particular incense ...now first off I'm NOT big on incense and only a couple of people in the world know which ones to get for me (Kodi and The Queen Mum). But this particular one recommended to me was to protect your home and heighten your senses when it came to negativity entering your surroundings. You may all be like .... Bulllllllllshit .... right now. But think what you want. We ALL have our different beliefs.

Last night I felt the true effects of it. I'm not going to go into the details of it all OnLine. But lets just say over the past few days since burning this stuff I've been able to see with a higher clarity and last night especially.

Today I woke up feeling at PEACE and knowing that I have to distance myself once again from negativity.
That's just how it has to be.

x Ms. E x

New Nail Spots.

So, for a long time I have been hauling ass into CNJ because I was stuck on a nail spot down there, .. mmhmm I'm a creature of habit sometimes. Anyhow, to my relief a new local nail salon is now open that I can dash down the street to.

Ultimate Nail Care ... 299A Grove St, Jersey City NJ.

Slane ... The Village

You have to eat their Vegetarian Quiche.
You have to love their $2 drinks.

Productivity.

Where ... home on my sofa after a LONG but PRODUCTIVE day.
What ... on the subject of, my day, my life, my loves.
Who ... a diva who LOVES life.

Listening to "Move Bitch ... Ludacris". Wearing ... some skinny tight tight black leggings with an oversized grey "tight in the right" sweater and my new oversized rock ;), Bulgari oversized sunglasses on my head.

So today started off STRESSFULLY ... I dragged myself up out of the bed, feeling cold and like winter had hit me a little too hard. Hair pulled up in a messy pony tail, butt naked, and dragging myself into the bathroom to shower and get ready for whatever the day had in store.

** Currently eating fried plantains with a cuban sandwich from my local restaurant HardGroveCafe .. mmm and sipping a Banana milkshake **

So .... went around to see an associate bout a mixtape n see what the deal is with him (awww he has the cutest pooch). Seriously this dog is adorable. Then headed over to Bowery to check a friend and the BEST jeweler in NY ... honestly he is one of those people who just takes me away from it all. So we handled what we had to handle and headed over to Ed's Lobster Bar on Lafayette.

(Ate steamers to start, n then lobster raviolli and sipped on a cherry iced vodka) Highly recommended.

Then headed into the village to meet Ms. Kodi Me'Chele ... @ Slane ... our SPOT lol in the village. I love it there, we have our lil table, and they play all the English music I used to listen to when I was a teenager (blur, oasis, pulp, manic street preachers) Then we headed down to Wall St, because I HAD to drag Kodi over to this clothes spot. Picked up a new phone n technological stuff from AT&T and headed home.

Honestly ... my night was pretty quiet ... sat down, ate my cuban food, spent some time with S.Dot and made it an early night. Somehow my day felt so complete.


**SHOULD HAVE BEEN POSTED LAST NIGHT BUT I CRASHED OUT LOL**

On My Mind.

Thinking of sitting here ... looking at the view ... with someone special.

Clear Stuff.

So we're all supposed to be drinking 74fluid oz a day of water.
If you can't deal with your tap water n wanna try something else ... you got to try Voss and Bling H20.

So Bling is strictly for the Diva moments ... and I don't buy it often ... but Voss is the best tasting water you can find ... I'm so in love.

x

Home.

LOL, had to post this video clip from Absolutely Fabulous because it reminds me of home and has me dying laughing.

LORAC

OK, gotta rave real fast about LORAC ... their make-up is so damn creative when it comes to the colors and products.

Today ... wearing ... "For the Love of Money" eyeshadow duo. Perfect khaki greens to compliment my outfit.

Justifying My $20 Toothpaste

OK ... so ... excuse the garbage-ey picture ... but I have to justify my use of Denblan. I'm always coming under fire from friends, lovers, family for using a $20 toothpaste ... but y'all should know Darphin products are the secrets of the stars ... mhmm I SAID SO lol. But seriously I've known many a fashionista, socialite and celebrity swear by many of their products and Denblan is no joke. So try it ... you might just like it. Plus it's got that wholesome oldschool SoHo look to it.

x Ms. E x

Things I Hate.

1. Taking off my shoes at the airport ... I have size 6 feet ... do you really think I've packed explosives into my Louboutins?

2. McMansion Developers ... don't get me started. A mini-mansion with no backyard, no fence, about 3 ft from your neighbors house and only room for an above ground pool. Classic. Why don't we just build a home off the McDonalds dollar menu.

3. Pennies ... they build up in the bottom of my bag and make it heavy, then eventually I get around to emptying it out and it looks as if I've been stealing the change from Las Vegas fountains.

4. Mediums, faith healers and clairvoyants ... lets just put them under the grand title of "con artists"

5. T Shirts with awful catchphrases on them. Lord. I have been guilty of having them. But anything that causes me to walk into something in the street trying to read the fucking paragraph on someone's t shirt is just WRONG. Banned banned banned.

6. People who don't eat with their mouth closed and smack their lips - This should have been number one but I cannot be bothered editing.

7. TV's in taxis ... they make me nauseous.

8. I hate not having the time to be artistic anymore ... and the fact I read People magazine.

9. People with no social graces. Know how to act in certain situations. Or I get upset.

10. People with no drive or motivation ... people who just "settle" ... at least be about SOMETHING.

(** 11. THE WAH WAH WAH of college music ... whenever I step into urban outfitters their in-store soundtrack makes me want to slice my own wrists**)

2nite.

It's just past midnight ... and I just finished walking foxy with a friend. ... wearing ... Juicy Couture black sweats, havanias, hair all sleek in a bun ...the air outside feels so fresh and so good, Fall is finally almost here. It's that cold night air that makes you want to bundle up with someone ... lingerie on and a big blanket to keep you both warm ... skin to skin. mhmm I'm getting chills just thinking about it.

Tonight my ex called me and asked me how I felt about her going on a date with someone.
Although it feels strange in a way that she would be dating someone other than me ... I really don't have a problem with it. I just want to see her happy ... and the individual she has been talking to sound grounded and about something (going to school, no kids etc).

ABC ... Broadway ... Love it.

I am a an interior-ho ... LOVE anything to do with decorating my home, a home, someone elses home etc ... at the end of the day HOME is where you come HOME to. You've got to make it your sanctuary from everything on the outside.
So seeing as my mum is visiting from the UK we headed over to ABC home and carpet on broadway ... ok so granted you have to be willing to drop paper in there, but it is so worth it.
They have EVERYTHING you could need when it comes to the living room, bedroom, bathroom, etc. Gotta love it. Be sure to drop by there sometime ... x Luv you x

Ms. E

**Currently wearing Da-Nang cream cargo pants, wifebeater, my rock, Chloe paddington bag (gold n black) and gold Jimmy Choo flats**

What ... "I Love Money" ... mhmm that show on VH1 or MTV or something.
Who ... my own favorite critic
Where ... YouTube.Com

My B.F.F. showed me her ex-camera-mans new "piece of work" ... n yeh it is a "piece of work" alright. Firstly it features this female ... I say female but that is clearly debatable (so says the modeling world too) called Sabrina. Firstly I cannot stand "try-hard" comediennes, they are just the hardest and most painful to watch. It's like watching an episode of Flava of Love ... watch me while I crucify myself with embarassment LIVE n DIRECT.

So ... firstly yes, me and this chick do have a history. Let's take it back ... picture it ... early Summer in a recording studio in Midtown Manhattan. Me ... wearing light brown Maharaishi cargos with the chinese dragon on the back, white wifebeater, Armani denim jacket with low collar dtail, and some silver jewelled Blaknik's. Hair tied up in messy bun. So we're just organizing things for the radio show ... the where's what's etc. N she shows up. Now, being a business woman and lady I TRY to keep things civil, but after this bitch looks me up and down with some ghetto-ized garbage look ... ummm ... honey ... bye bye. Consider your ass got rid of because now everyone sees that not only do you look like you stepped out the 90's (with your t-boz hairstyle, 70's jeans and tank that only a genuine bonafide hoodrat would squeeze into n your stomach poppin over the top of your jeans) but they also now see how unprofessional you are. Congratulations. Then to top it all off you loudly start critisizing the studio owners daughter (who ... I would like to point out, does have some kinda career in music, whether it's one I respect or not). Damn S, you really outdid yourself there.

But anyhow ... so here she is ... on this new "project" (which is not only poorly edited but incredibly un-funny). Hair done in the same T-Boz style cept curly n lopsided this time, bags under her eyes that would rival Uncle Fester's (ya know, Adam's Family style) and a man jaw that suggests she eats steriods with her Cheerio's. To top that all off ... she apparently left her sense of humor on the A Train next to Doug E. Fresh.

I went so far as to watch it 3 times to check I wasn't missing the concept. (Actually the concept could have been great had someone executed it correctly) 18 minutes later ... nope wasn't missing the concept.

Just to show ... with some people ... NOT A DAMN THING CHANGES.
Progression babies ... it's all about progression.

Finesse It.

Finesse -

1. Refinement and delicacy of performance, execution, or artisanship.
2. Skillful, subtle handling of a situation; tactful, diplomatic maneuvering.
3. A method of leading up to a tenace, as in bridge, in order to prevent an opponent from winning the trick with an intermediate card.
4. A stratagem in which one appears to decline an advantage.

v., -nessed, -ness·ing, -ness·es. v.tr.

1. To accomplish by the use of finesse.
2. To handle with a deceptive or evasive strategy.
3. To play (a card) as a finesse.

v.intr.

1. To use finesse.
2. To make a finesse in cards.

When.

Where ... on my sofa listening to the rain outside
What ... when is it really time to SLOW DOWN?

I was just told "you need to sit your ass down and stop running around it's not healthy"
I had it sit and think about it for a minute - When is it time to slow down? When is it time to take a break?

This Monday I'm so over-excited about my mum flying in from England to visit for two weeks. Honestly, I cannot wait to be totally cut off from the outside world and just spend family time. Hell ... I MISS HER!! Family is always first and I'm so incredibly protective over my immediate family that people are lucky to even catch a glimpse of them, I keep them so shielded from any foolishness or potential problems. You think the CIA protects the president?! ... PUH-LEASE you haven't seen shit til you see me get protective over my fam.

So from Monday it is time to SLOW DOWN and bring everything to a screeching halt for two weeks.
So ... C ... you were right to tell me to slow down. From tomorrow (Saturday) I'm back on my 3 times a week training routine along with 74 fl oz of water a day and healthy eating ... I REALLY fell off having consumed far too many dirty water hot-dogs ... and way too much soda lol. But, sometimes you just have to give in to what you really want ;)

Tomorrow is the Exxotica Convention in NJ ... porn porn everywhere lol.

x E

"DO WHAT YOU WOULD DO IF YOU COULDN'T FAIL"

upDatEs.

So, I actually got around to checking my email today -- and found that someone who I consider to be a very positive influence in my life had sent me one of his upcoming projects ... so please ... take the time out to view.

http://www.politickin.org

When the Lights Go Out .... Mya

i know sometimes you wonder where im at
where i be what im doin and if im givin your love away
im not like none in your past so it hurts when you ask
who im with like your questioning my loyalty
just cause i dont pick up dont mean im doin you wrong
maybe im busy or the phone aint ring at all
but you know ill hold you down
tonight its goin down
stop all your questions im gonna show you that its yours
the moment them lights go off oh baby baby
thats when i start to breakn down you got my attention now
the moment them lights go off my baby baby
thats when you hear them ooos and ahhs
thats when i wanna take you over
the moment them lights go off
sweet baby baby
boy u dont have to worry none we about to make love love
when the lights go off then i turn on
dont stop dont stop ???(we both grown?? keep on goin??)
lights go off lights go off lights go off lights go off

now i might be goin through one of my moods
that dont mean that im mad at you
just because i got things to do dont mean that i aint thinkin of you
aint gotta trip cause i got male friends you the one that i lay down with
and please believe that im always here and boy i promise you im so sincere
when the lights go off ill be everything you need
thats when i let go and give you every part of me

baby tonight youll see what im about
so lay your worries down and what im gonna give is only for you
ill prove it to you now
no other man could ever earn my love no
turn down the lights so i can show you its yours
100% baby from my head to my toes
every inch of me is all for you
so come take it cause its yours